|Volcano in Eyjafjallajokul - what I saw in my dream|
I walk to the guest bathroom, grabbing the eye drops on the way. I turn on the light, put a few drops in my dry eyes and then I walk into the office. He's not online. I check my email - he's going to be 15 minutes late. We finally play - and we're playing like it's a blitz game. The game is 45 45, but we both end the game with more than 45 minutes on each of our clocks! Of course I lost the game. No surprise there. But why is the question.
Like usual, I blunder in the opening moves. After doing some post-game checking, I see I went out of book on move 5. I lose a pawn. I know it's over. This guy is too good.
But why didn't I take time to think a bit more? Sometimes I can get in the groove and really enjoy the thinking and analyzing. Other times, like this morning, I am just restless and want to be moving - not thinking. How do I combat this? I need to find a solution to combat this anxiety when it occurs. Deep breathing? A bit of jogging in place or some exercise before or during the game? Meditation? I'll have to think of this a bit more. I know in the past, I have gotten up and walked around a bit - not because of restlessness, but because I needed a drink or to go to the restroom. When I did that, I became more settled. Maybe I need to incorporate this into my start-of-the-game routine - force myself to walk around a bit - think about a move a bit longer.
With the loss, my rating dropped below 1600 for the first time since - I don't know - maybe 2004? I ended up playing a couple of 15 0 games with a 1584 player (I was 1590ish). I won both of them easily and my rating bumped up above 1640. I don't even know why I care about the rating - consistency is what I desire. And to know what the hell I should do in the opening so I can give myself a chance.
image source: The Big Picture